Damnit.

I got the call from Erin at UCLA.

The tests came back

NEGATIVE.

I'm so annoyed with that.

(time for the sciency stuff)

My Connexin 26 and Connexin 30 genes are normal. Which means that they still have no idea why I can't #&@%ing hear.

Damnit.

Damnit Damnit Damnit.

All I have ever wanted was just to have some sort of reason for all of this. Something concrete like "well your parents both carried a recessive gene that caused a mutation in your Connexin 26 gene which resulted in your hearing loss." Basically, I wanted to hear that I was a mutant. But no, they tell me I'm normal.

So much for clarity.

I'm going to go stare off into space now.

QOTD: "Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal."